Healing Ceremony 1/28

This is going a bit back in time, only a week ago and a day… it’s amazing at how time flies so quickly.  

The day before I left,  I was blessed to have a healing ceremony held for me, hosted by Susan and the sister from Tulum.  While my journey up till that point, had been about being in action, the ceremony was a turning point of not just being in action, but also owning my actions along with owning what has been going on.  

There are many who speak about The Stages of Grief that happen when life changings situations occur, such as death and life thretening illnesses.  The stages are 1. denial and isolation, 2. anger 3. bargening, 4. depression and 5. acceptance.  When I read these stages, I feel that I personally do not fit into these 5 stages.  Why… because I don’t view my diagnoses of Hodgkins Lyphoma, Stage 4 Cancer as something I should be scared shitless about.  For I know deep in my soul and being that there is much more life for me to be living, and many more things for me to be doing, till a very ripe old age and a rocking chair.  But, I do own that there are serious things that needed to be changed in my life.  The healing ceremony held at Yoga Now was a huge realization point for me. 

There were so many people that day who care about me, care so much they came to be a part of a ceremony that was foreign to many of them, a little bit out of the ordinary, or bizarre, but they stretched their ways of being to be there for me.  Love.   And there I was, in the center, in the space of letting it all in, washing over me in gold ways and sinking in… deep.. penitrating the years of walls I had built up around my heart and soul to protect it for fear of being hurt by those that I love.  I learned last Thursday that Love is beautiful and sometimes hurt comes with it, but that is just a facet of living.  Love prevails though and is so strong it shook my core and rattled some sense into it.  I surrendered to some of my strongest fears, and feel so much stronger for it. 

below is a photo of the Ancestor Plate I created as a gift to the ancestor spirits for this ceremony.  The plate and the foilage from the ceremony were saved and then placed on the icy shores of Lake Michigan at sunrise the next morning, on my way to the airport.  

To all those that came for the ceremony, Thank You

to all those that couldn’t come in person to the ceremony, Thank You.. for I felt you there.

Ancestor Plate for Healing Ceremony